January 2011
21 posts
I’ve never spoken about this before, because I wasn’t comfortable, because I felt that people would pity me. I suppose it all really started in October, my grandma was hospitalized with gall bladder stones, they ran tests, and she was discharged. About a month or so later, she had to go back to the hospital, and the worst news came, our family found out she had cancer. As my grandma...
The next few weeks are gonna be insane. All I’m doing is wrestling basically. I got out of practice at like 7 something today, to prepare for our dual against Valencia next week. We beat Tustin by one point, and today I found out Valencia beat Tustin 75-4. HOLY SHIT. Valencia is fucking stacked as hell. I have tournaments for the next 3 weeks.. Canyon, Savanna, and Millikan.
YEAH BUDDY!...
I know you want your space,
so I’m hoping I didn’t violate that. I just couldn’t stand by hearing about how hurt you are, and that I couldn’t be there to wipe your tears, and that I could possibly be the cause for them. I love you too much to seemingly give up. I’ll never give up on you.
I'm happy I still know what's going on in your...
Keep it coming baby, keep it coming. I know that this is the most I can have for now, but I’m going to be patient for you. Love is patient, I’m learning. I want her to take all the time in the world, ultimately to figure out what she really wants, then she will be happy. I just know it.
Someone wake me up.
This is hard. She feels so close, but so far away. I want to talk to her, but this is what she wants. I want to give her the biggest hug in the world right now, I want to give her a kiss on the forehead, and I want to let her know everything will be okay. I want to let her know that I don’t want to go another day. I want to pick her up and spin around in circles until we’re both dizzy...
In need of absolution.
Do I do more wrong than right? The predicament that I’m currently in is more complicated than I could ever imagine. I’m at a loss of words, I don’t know who I really am, but I know my life just took a turn for major change within one day. I love her deeply with my heart and soul, but with the guilt of numerous wrongdoings. Do I make her happy? Am I making her happy now? Is she...
"Real living is living for others."
As hard as it is, I always find myself looking at my phone, wanting to say something, wanting to tell her how much I miss her already. Checking my phone to see if she’s said anything to me, call me clingy but a day just felt like an eternity. The worst part is that the day isn’t over yet. I’ve still got about 4 hours of practice today to get ready for my dual against Kennedy....
If you love her, set her free, if she comes back,...
I guess it’s just what I am, selfish, with a front of selflessness. All in all, when it boils down to it, it’s true I’m just a selfish 17 year old boy. For everyone that may or may not know about my past, let me fill you in. I thought I loved this girl, I was 14, I was a freshman in high school. I thought I had everything figured out, I was happy, and she was all I needed. Until...
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